“Hello, my name is Job and I’m addicted to porn.”
That’s how integrity starts; admitting the obvious. There’s a lot of stigma in the above statement, but that’s ok. Fear and shame keep too many of us locked in secrecy, fighting porn all alone. The evidence is mounting that porn addiction is rampant; in and outside the church. God grant more of us the grace to come clean and get help.
But being addicted to porn is only half the story. The problem really isn’t porn. Most guys, given the choice of watching an explicit video or being in the video, will choose the latter option. Am I wrong? (nudge, nudge, wink, wink)
It turns out that most guys watch porn because, unlike Hugh Hefner, they do not have access to the young, lusty Playmates to fulfill their every desire. Porn only allows men to keep a harem of such beautiful women in their head… and their hard drive. But if porn is sloppy seconds, then what’s the real problem?
It must be sex itself, right? Then I should modify the opening line to,
“Hello, my name is Job and I’m a sex addict.”
!!??? Sweet holy biscuits, now there’s stigma for you. Only Will Ferrell can put the words sex and addict together and make it sound funny and not creepy, according to his character on “Blades of Glory”, it is “…"a real disease with doctors and medicine and everything!"
But if the problem were sex, then why isn’t marriage a cure? In marriage you can supposedly have sex as often as you want. I’ve run across alot of guys who’ve gotten married thinking that the "unlimited" access to sex would “cure” their problem with porn. I was one of them. But marriage is no cure for this malady as any married guy will attest. There seems to be something that makes sex with only one woman not enough.
Maybe we can use lust to describe the insatiable hunger that drives a man to never be satisfied with one woman or even one million images, videos, affairs, etc.
“Hello, my name is Job and I’m a lust addict.”
Lust is hard to define and it stretches far beyond just porn. I've made a list of characteristics of Lust. Please feel free to add your own definitions of lust by clicking the link.
1) Lust is what drives church-going, married men to secretly patronize strip clubs.
2) Lust is the force that compels a defeated man back to his computer to look for more porn, even though he swore he’d never do it again.
3) Lust is behind the fabulous scandal of that famous pastor or political figure.
4) Lust is the fuel that drives the global sex trafficking industry.
5) Lust can turn a father/brother/neighbor/uncle/friend into a sexual abuser.
6) Lust can horrifically recycle itself by often turning the sexually abused into abusers.
7) Lust can turn a beautiful woman, created in the image of God, into an object or a commodity.
8) Lust sells alcohol, deodorant, clothes, cars, diamonds, records, movies, chocolate, lifestyles, on and on and on…
9) Lust starts innocent and seemingly manageable, and before long, it turns ugly and becomes obviously unmanageable.
10) Lust tricks many people into trying to manage lust their whole lives. And, by the grace of Lust, most people remain socially acceptable lusters. But it seems that the number of scary lusters is increasing.
11) Lust is like a hunger.
12) Lust is like a drug. Unlike a drug, lust is available in our minds 24/7.
13) Lust seems to be a spiritual in nature.
I worshipped Lust for years. I was a fervent devotee of the beauty cult, following hard after Lust and the next great fix. From the outside, I looked pretty normal, but inside, most of my reason for living was to satisfy lust, in one way or another. It was very empty. For myself, I have found that Lust is truly neither a loving nor a gracious god.
Without the grace of Christ, I would worship lust right now. Sometimes I’m good at pretending I can handle it on my own, but eventually Lust proves to be more powerful than I am. I’ve only found One thing more powerful than Lust and that is Christ.
I am a lust addict; another description for a sinner. But I count myself fortunate. I know deeply how desperately I need mercy and grace. I am grateful for the shameful addiction that drove me to the feet of my Redeemer, the Friend of Sinners, Jesus.
thoughts?
Job